To The People Who Feel Alone
Something that always shocked me when I was a kid was the phrase in the Bible, Matthew 27:46 when Jesus exclaims, “My God, my God, why have You forsaken me”.
The more I talk to people the more I realize how scared many of us are of being alone, of “ending up alone”. One of the speakers at Cafe Catolica this past summer of 2017 said something along the lines of, “Everyone prays for a Saint Joseph, but no one is like Mary”. I laughed when I heard it, but I am guilty of it as well. Just think for a second. Can you even imagine the love she must have for God? She gets a message from an angel, who tells her that she will get pregnant (which she could get stoned to death for) and she says yes. At one point in time, Saint Joseph even tried to divorce her quietly. There is no scene of despair of Our Lady. There is always just quiet love and powerful faith. There are so many instances where she could have feared “ending up alone”, but she did not worry. She just had faith.
Now, imagine her at the foot of the cross. Think of all the faith she had on God. Think of all the love she had for Jesus. Think of how much her heart must have hurt at the moment when Jesus died, and she remained on the earth with the simple command of, “Woman, behold your son”. After knowing all that we did to Jesus, she comes back to love us and care for us and ask us to pray. I even dare to say that it isn’t despite what we did to Jesus, it is because she knows we are broken. She knows how capable we are of breaking each other. She knows how easy it is to hurt those we love. She still comes with an open heart to tell us that Jesus is waiting for us to turn to Him and ask for forgiveness.
No, this is not to tell you to forget your sorrows because Our Mother has suffered more. This is to remind you, and all of us, that there is love in the world. There are people who care. Our Mother cares. Jesus cares. God cares. Each of them is looking for us with open arms. Sometimes we must suffer with Mary and we’ll find ourselves in the heart of Christ.
There is a reflection that when Jesus cries, “My God, why have you forsaken me?” it alludes to Psalm 22. You can read it here, but a part that struck me said, “Lamenting is not a failure of faith but an act of faith”. Jesus cried out knowing God would be listening. God is always listening. We are never alone.
Yes, waiting for a significant other can be stressful, sad, and may feel disappointing at times. However, have faith and do not despair. Offer up whatever feeling of loneliness and sadness you have for those who truly don’t know their God is waiting for them to come home.
With Mary in Christ,
Someone who wants you to know you are loved
I know this isn’t a diary. You know I always thought I felt kinda alone. Even with friends, dating, parents, even with God in my life. It always felt like something was missing. I have all these things that I do to cope like bake, play card games but they don’t work as well. They’re maybe temporary and even then its just not enough. I’ve been losing sleep, I feel really tired. Sometimes I don’t even go to bed. I don’t even sleep until 9AM. It’s like someone has a hold on my thoughts, maybe it’s just a ghost hand. Honestly, I wish someone had firm grasp hold on my mind. Why is it that even with God at my side or in front of me, that I still fee l alone? Why is it that even when I have friends that I just feel anti social sometimes? Every connection I made with everyone seems like its just going to dissipate because they’re graduating, Semester after Semester. Meanwhile i’m still here, watching them go. I worry about school, my family, my friends, I just need someone to worry about myself. No matter how hard I try, I can’t worry about myself. The loneliness just grows. Will prayer solve this? If it will, I need an answer from Him.